Now What?

Have you ever had a "now what?" season of life?  This is when you've been waiting for something (good or bad) for a while and the deadline passes.  You've received what you were waiting for, you got the news you'd been anticipating.  And now you're sitting on a lack of anticipation or motivation.

I'm not saying that's an entirely accurate description of where I am right now, but I am witnessing some transitions and turnover around me that do leave me wondering what will happen next.  The moments I'm seeing right now are neither dreadful nor magnificent.  They just leave me with a sense of ambivalence.

Perhaps these moments are a sort of preparation or an anticipation.  We can't live on the edge of our seats all the time.  And sometimes NOT being so focused on something we think may soon happen gives our minds a bit of a break from the constant tension of leaning forward into the next moment.

I hope this makes sense when I read it days or weeks down the road.  But for now, I can't think of a more accurate way to reflect my current mood that to simply ask the question, "now what?"